Leeeee! / Danielle Dorval (Aruba partiersss =) )

Ok so I have been thinking of you everyday. I know i didnt talk to you all the time, but now when i decide to call you or email you, You wont be responding. It breaks my heart that I didnt get one last goodbye.

 

On a lighter note, I went to your grave and left some halloween decorations, because your the halloween man. I hope you forgive me for that stupid fight we had. I mean we talked about it afterwards, but now you made me realize, to never fight with my friends, because they could be gone in an instant.

 

Anyways, if people are like me then they read all these posts by everyone. So i thought I'd share a story about you.

Me and lee met in Aruba, at a bar at our hotel. Cute right? Well since I was 18 and he was also, we took advantage on drinking. =) Lee came and sat by me, and i was down because i met these boys and they wanted me to go to senor frogs, (a club in aruba) but i was to nervous to go over there by myself. So lee comes and sits down, and orders a Balashi, (gross beer from aruba.) Of course i opened my mouth and said thats gross, get a killer koolaid. So we started talking, and one thing i will never forget about lee is that he smoked those NASTY camels. haha. He lights one up, and i grab one, even though i have severe asthma. Stupid i know. So then Lee's GRANDPARENTS swing by the bar, while we were having a ciggarette and killerkoolaid. So the first time i meet his grandparents i was DRUNK with Leee. They stayed for about 15 minutes and i tried acting sober. When they leave me and lee are in absolute hysterics. So he says, so what about that bar do you wanna go? I had jmust met lee and hour before, but what the heck? We ended up taking a Tour bus down there, taking pictures with his grandmothers camera. Little did I know, Lee wasnt allowed of the resort. So we arrive there and they were playing drinking games. Lee decided he wanted to volunteer us for one of the games. I WAS MORTIFIED. He drags me on stage.

Lee sits in the chair with about 200 people watching us, and there was a 40 year old couple playing against us. My job was to stand behind lee and pin 40 clothes pins on his face. Well if you know lee, you know he likes to show how stretchy his skin is and pull it off his body. So Im ripping out his skin, pinning them on his ears, shoving them up his nose, pinning his eyes, and lips. Then its all up to lee, to chug a corona before the old guy does.

 

WELL LEE LOST! I was so mad I ripped all the clothes pins off of his face. It was so funny we were laughing. Then we had to go down the water slide with all our clothes on. That was a story we told for weeks and months. It was a blast.

 

Well lee i have to go to class. I miss you and ill be back to write more soon.

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Sweet dreams  / Danielle Smith (Sister)
They put your name on your grave stone today, your name does not belong there, not yet. but it looks nice just hurts a little more today i love you so much i just wish i could have one more day with you more more hour one more min, i hope you understand how much you hurt me, but i still love you someday the hurt will go away slowly, rylee helps everyone helps.. but no one can bring you back. i know i saw your name there today its real i know it was real but its still like i am living a night mare every day all day long i just wish i could wake up and you would be here again i hope you know i was never really mad at you
i love you so much
maybe you can help me fall asleep tonight its been a while
i love you so much
Rylee and Eric do too
every one does
everyone always will
Sweet dreams my sweet angel
Love your sister
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Thursday / Danielle Smith (Sister)
Hey Lee, i miss you so much things have been getting really busy, we finally got some good news yesterday, but i like to think you helped a little with that :) mom and dad were very excited to hear. I love you, i hope your watching over Rylee she is getting so big, she got another tooth now she has 3 on top and 3 on bottom, i wish you were here to see her. She POOPED in the sink today it was soo gross! i had to give her another bath. Everyone misses you so much. It still doesnt seem real to me. I am still waiting for that phone call to come get you. :( Any way Danielle, from Aruba came to see you, she was really upset. she got lost (Just like you) grampa meet her at the doughnut shop and brought her to your site. she left you some halloween decorations, god halloween is going to suck. Rylee is gonna be Tinker Bell though i might dress her up and take her around Nana & Grampa's, wait till you see how cute she is.
Lee i miss you so much i just dont understand some times i wake up all night trying to figure it out but i cant. I am just so angry with you right now. Nothing will ever be the same. I just hope you know how much i love you and that i would have done anything for you. I just wish you called me.
But I will be strong for you, today is a bad day but i love you and every one misses you so much
OH yea i almost forgot to tell you Nana and Grampa have MICE ! lol they already caught one lol kinda of funny how they get them now...
but anyway im gonna try and clean my house a little, too bad i cant pay you anymore!
I think Alica is coming over Sunday so i want to make sure the house looks ok.
i love you
XoXoXo
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The last time....  / Missy Hergt (Amy's oldest friend )

The last time I saw you was when I invited myself up from the cape, (again :)... we all went to fitzies pub and you and I had the chicken parm.....You were always happy to see me, even if no one else was ;) (you and spencer that is :)..... If I had known that day was going to be the last time, I would have held on a little longer and a little tighter when you gave me one of your hugs.......I am still in shock, I think about you day and night........You looked so handsome Lee at Daniell's wedding, such a handsome man... I wish I could have been there in some way....... I hope that you are at peace Lee Joseph... and I want to thank you for the "signs" that day I found out...... I won't say goodbye sweetheart, just see you later.... 

All my Love Forever....

"Missy"

P.S. do me a favor, watch over my Jenna for me and if you see my parents, please tell them to send me some good luck....(don't listen to my mother and all she has to say about me, I  really was her favorite, she just couldn't remember :)

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Good Morning  / Danielle Smith (Sister)
Good Morning Lee, its Sunday you know what that means, yup everyone his here for Dough Nuts. I made cinimon buns today too :) I figured we could all use a little change. We are taking Rylee to the big Apple today, with Nana & Grampa, just like they used to take us every year. I remember how grampa used to give us an apple in the car and when he asked for the trash you had eaten the whole apple even the core!
Well just found out that mom and dad are not coming, some one got you a tree and they couldnt decide where to put it. I guess i will just have to bring the cinimon buns to her.
Well have a good day
i love you i will write more later
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Hello / Lee &. Babara Jillson (Grandparents)
If you find a senor frogs in heaven go and have a blast :) We will always remember and cherish the memories you gave us in Aruba. You are the first thing we think of in the morning and the last thing we think of at night
Rest in Peace
Love
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Hi / Danielle Smith (Sister)
Last night was fun we had a pretty good time it was a rough ride there though because all i could think about is how you were with us the last time we were there. We had so much fun.
Today sucks i got incited out with the girls tonight but eric wont let me go. i know you would just say Go, you always wanted me to have fun.
Its finally starting to hit me i think all the things i cant do anymore, sometimes i dont know if anything i have chosen for my self is right.
I miss you so much i just wish you were here to help me and talk to me.
Mom really needs you right now its almost like she was in shock at first because i really though she was doing ok but today was a bad day for her. She had a crop today so that should take her mind off things for a little while. Dad seems to be ok today, but i dont really know what ok means anymore
Today sucks i just wish i could call you and you would answer
im gonna go visit you soon maybe just sit and have a chat this helps though i some how think you can read this. I need to believe you can read this.
Im gonna pray for mom and dad and nana and grandpa. I'll come see you soo just to sit and talk it just hard not to cry when i get there
this is so not fair life isnt fair
you were to young. I love you lee please know that
Life is so FUCKED up right now. I  dont even know what to think, but this helps everyone helps. Everyone is being so kind.
i just hope you see now all the people who truly cared about you
i hope now you realize that we love you
i miss you so much im going to visit you now i love you
ill write more tonight
i think maybe i just need to take each day as it comes i need to have fun and live life to the fullest. i Love Rylee and would to anything for her i just wanna have fun sometimes you know? you know how that is you always wanted to have fun i just never took you out
i should have invited you out more i know im sorry i love you
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Somebody said a Prayer  / Danielle Smith (Sister)
Hey Lee another day has past and yet your still all i can think about. Every song i listen to some how makes me think of you. I started praying for you today but then i think how stupid that is because your already happy so i started praying for our family especialy mom and dad. We miss you so much. My life will never ever be the same with out you. Sometimes i think im ok and other times i wonder how you could do this. I was so angry with you i hate you for leaving me so soon. But i love you and i know your safe. I just wish you came to me, i would have done anything for you. I only wanted what i though was best
i guess i should have been more of a sister and less of a mom,
I love you so much
I know i will see you again i just have to make the best of what i have now. I wont ever let Rylee forget you, You were such an amazing uncle
I remember how you used to baby- sit for free and how you used to smoke outside while she was sleeping that drove me nuts! God i wish i could yell at you again! and i remember how you wouldnt take my money then showed up with the radio you bought us. But that was just the type of person you were always doing so much for others
i found a note you wrote me i read it everyday
I hope this site helps other people too it makes me feel better writing to you, i just wish you could write something back
Im gonna go out tonight, remember Erics brother Jeff? Its his girlfriends birthday so we are going to Dave and Busters, remember we went there for your birthday, wasnt much fun for me i was huge and pregnant! but i hope you had fun. I love you so much Lee
I will see you someday when your ready for me after i live this life some one has to wipe moms & dads ass's when they get old, thanks now its all up to me!
i love you
always always
forever forever
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I Miss You!  / Fayth McNamara (life long friend )

Lee.. i miss you soo much. Youve made me laugh all the time and ill never forget you. Going to Fitzys Pub and playing keno, hanging out in Danielles room while we were getting ready to go out... ill cherish the memories for the rest of my life. Love You! <3

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Lee RiP  / Breanna Decosta (Friend from school and Program )
Lee Rip we will always remeber you... i just cant believe that you are gone... when i found out i went crazy... you will always be in my heart... i remember when i always had a problem you were always there to help me out... you were such an amazing guy.... you will be deeply missed... by everyone... i give my condolences to your family and your god daughter... i am soo sorry for you loss... he was a great friend... i love you Lee RIP </3 Close

Love ya buddy  / Tabbie Liston (friend)

Lee, not a day has gone by that I havn't thought about you. There's always something that reminds me of you. You were such an amazing friend, and always there no matter what. Yea, me and manda got mad at you for little things a few times, but we always made up because you were so persistant in talking to us again =]
I loved that, it made me feel like I really was important to you. And I don't think I ever told you how important to me you were, and I just wish I had one more chance to tell you.
You saved me and amanda that night we needed someone really bad. You let us stay in your bed. I remember talkin to you for awhile that night with amanda passed out next to me. It was nice to know I had someone like you there for me. And you didn't even complain.
man, we had so many great memories. You, me and Rory were all supposed to make more when he got home. You were so excited to see him. We used to have conversations about how excited we were to see him, all the time. And instead I have to tell him you're not with us anymore. He is going to be so crushed. You were very important to him, too. I hope you knew that.
We will be coming to visit you when he gets home. Most definitaly. So be expecting us =]
I love you Lee. I miss you and you will ALWAYS be in my heart<3

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Leeeeee! / Danielle Dorval (Friend for ARUBAAA )
Lee, I just found out today through myspace that you passed on. I read it, and my college roommate had to read it again, to make sure I read it right. I have never cried so hard in my life. Maybe because I haven't lost someone that was directly involved in my life. We had some great times, like me getting lost everytime i came out to see you, or you totalling your car coming to see me. I know I haven't talked to you in a couple of weeks, and I would think of you from time to time. But not that your gone it's absolutely heartbreaking. My parents are so upset about this. I feel so horrible not going to your funeral or wake. I really wish I could have been there for you. I love you to death Lee. I hope your having fun up there. Save me a spot up there. Your always in my thoughts and prayers. I'll be coming up to see you when i get back from college. We'll have a little chat. =) <3 dannielllleeeee Close

Lee / Danielle Smith (Sister)
Its already been two weeks, every day some how gets harder and easier at the same moment. i miss you so much i just wish there was something i could do, i would do anything just to see you one more time. My heart breaks everyday knowing your not here. Its still not real i am still waiting for you phone call. I love you so much you were an amazing person know one will ever understand the bond we had you were my best friend, the person i could always go to know matter what.
I'm so sorry that i told mom that night you were drunk you never would have done that to me, i am so sorry i never meant to hurt you i was only trying to help
I love you so much
I know that you are in heaven watching over all of us and you will forever be watching over Rylee you were always a great uncle/ Godfather  and i will remind her of that everyday
Mom and Dad miss you so much its just not fair some times its hard to talk to them because i know they are hurting more than me. Nana and grandpa miss you to they took this pretty hard we don't understand i hope you know how much we love you.
I love you Lee
Rylee and i will visit you tomorrow
Forever and ever i love you
see you someday
always always
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